Struggling...

Bummed, discouraged...not sure which word better describes my frame of mind...maybe a combo of the two. We received word today from Show Hope that we didn't get an adoption grant this time. They provided in a big way for Mei and we were praying that they would provide what we needed to jump the next financial hurdle...but that didn't happen. The grant would have been so easy..5-7000 dollars and we would've been well on the way to our 10000 goal...easy...and we don't have time for hard! Financially, this adoption has
been so much tougher than with Mei. . With him, adoption was new and exciting...his baby pictures were precious and money just poured in. Going to the mailbox was exciting and God was just providing left and right through our church family, friends, and family members. God just hasn't provided that way this time.

Even in our discouragement, we rest in the calling God has placed on us to bring these two children home into our family. We know of His love for orphans and because of that, we know He has a plan to provide exactly what we need.

And all this after we get this message from Eli this am... "Everyday,Mao Xiao Long asked the director the same question,when will be adopted? He is very anxious waiting for his forever family come and take him home. He is very active and happy boy. He is very good at handwork. He can make airplane , car and truck by the paper box or waste tooth paste.". The realization of how bad this boy wants to come home makes it that much harder...we would sell all we own to make that happen at this point...and we aren't beyond that;)

We do have a couple of sweet families that have gone above and beyond to help us financially and we are so blessed and thankful for them! We know too that there are many prayer warriors around the country praying for us and for Eli and Zoe. We are extremely grateful for them as well!


God continues to remind me that His grace is sufficient for me and His power is made perfect in my weakness...when I am weak...He is strong....and we need Him to be strong for us now in a big way as we are definitely feeling weak!