It is awesome when we are dealing with life altering decisions and God gives us an answer that is crystal clear. Or maybe He just deals with me that way because I am too stubborn and hard-headed to listen otherwise!
Tracey and I over the last two months have been doing some extreme praying and soul searching over whether or not we were supposed to bring Zoe home with Eli or if we were just supposed to focus on Eli for now. I could easily argue both sides of the issue, and depending on my emotional state, could go back and forth several times a day! Money is tight with Mei's medical expenses, time is short with 5 children already, Eli is about to age out of the system so shouldn't we pour our energy into just getting him home....then, I kept thinking about Zoe's little face, she almost looks like a Chinese Briena....due to her medical diagnosis, she is truly the least of the least. She needs a mommy and daddy just as much as Eli.
As I prayed through all this, I kept hearing God whisper one phrase over and over...."choose life". I kept debating back and forth with God....what does this mean? And he kept whispering the same. I read the phrase in books I was reading, heard it on songs on the radio, and read it in the passage above. God finally answered my prayer over the last week...the name Zoe means life.
We are being called to choose Zoe and are once again reminded that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness as when we are weak, he is strong. God has told us to choose Zoe, obey God, love God, and commit ourselves fully to Him (no more wavering in our decision) and this is the key to our lives. Could He be any more clear than that???
Thank you Jesus for making Your will abundantly clear to us. I can't wait to see what you do with Zoe's precious little life. I know you have big plans for her as you have for all our children!
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